Esther 4:14 For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”
This often quoted verse from Esther came to mind tonight as I was thinking about tomorrow. It is very difficult heading into the unknown…..especially when you foresee the unknown to be bad. Esther’s relative Mordecai is literally asking her to risk her life by going to the king. I imagine that Esther did not think this was such a great thing and was very scared, but she trusted and took the step of faith.
I am in no way comparing our situation to Esther’s, but I can draw strength for this biblical example. I am so very glad that we were able to wait a few weeks before going on the diet as originally planned. We have had some good times at home as a family. We have been able to rest at home and avoid hospital stays for 3 weeks. We have been able to do more research and introduce new foods to Gabriel. We have gone through the heartache of seeing a third medicine fail to control his seizures after almost 3 weeks seizure free. All these things make me aware that this is our “For such a time as this”
I have many worries and what ifs in my mind. I hope like crazy the diet works. We are reading that it can take up to 10 weeks to tell. I hope he will eat every last bite of the food and that meal times are not battles like medicine. I hope I can overcome my “close enough” personality and can be diligent in weighing and measuring every gram as the diet requires.
I am exceedingly thankful for the abundance of resources, information and support we have available to us. I know that if and when I fall there will be arms to catch me.